Warning: a bit of a personal post
Hello again honeybees! To be honest, I found this one at the very bottom of my drafts and I figured why not? Here are some books that resonate with me and why they are so special to me.
Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe/ The Inexplicable Logic of My Life by Benjamin Alire Sanz
Two books? Yes, two beautiful books by this beautiful author. Aristotle and Dante was the first book I ever read with Latin representation and it changed my life. Inexplicable Logic dove deeper into what it meant to be Mexican-American, something I think about constantly. These two books changed the way I look at literature and how I view myself as a Latina.
Simon vs. the Homo Sapien’s Agenda by Becky Albertalli
I know, okay? I know. I’m annoying. I’m a broken record. If you follow me on Instagram, you’ve heard me raving about this book and it’s movie adaptation Love, Simon. It’s so good. Besides it being so so so beautiful, it was the first book that made me really think about my sexuality. More importantly, it made me want to come out. I didn’t. I haven’t. But reading this book, and rereading it, almost forces the words out of me every time.
Becky Albertalli made me feel okay. She made me feel natural. For the first time in my whole life I didn’t hate myself because of who I was. I will never be able to communicate exactly what that means to me.
Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets by JK Rowling
I love reading. I love learning. I can be a bit of a try hard. Hermione Granger much? Yes. This was the book that got me into reading and I fully embraced my Hermione side. I related to her so deeply, and still do. I have yet to read about a character that captures my nerdy side quite like our beloved Hermione.
The Fault In Our Stars/ Turtles All The Way Down by John Green
Two different books that deal with two different illnesses. TFIOS has a MC with lung cancer, and while I (thankfully) don’t have cancer, I have chronic asthma that impacts my everyday life. To see chronic illness representation in a book is rare and it made me feel less like a freak. I take multiple pills everyday and have several doctors appointments a week, and I’m not alone.
I’m not going to lie, I didn’t like Turtles when I first read it. I don’t think I like it even now. But that’s due solely to the fact that it was triggering and a very, very accurate representation of anxiety and OCD. Mental illnesses are difficult to have, there are no physical symptoms (in most cases) and no one can truly tell that you’re having a mental breakdown just by looking at you. This book made me feel very understood in terms of my mental illnesses, albeit really uncomfortable.
Unfiltered by Lily Collins
Yay more triggering reads. This isn’t just nonfiction, it’s a memoir. I figured that there would be nothing that I had in common with a famous actress. I was wrong. Lily spoke beautifully about her eating disorder. It wasn’t the first time I had read about eating disorders, but it was the only time I could completely relate to the author. The scenarios that she described were very real, and things that brought me back to my hard battle with an eating disorder. It’s something I struggle with everyday and it is a big part of my identity.
History Is All You Left Me by Adam Silvera
Where do I start with this heart wrenching and heartwarming book? I recently went through my first great loss, losing someone who was incredibly important to me. Griffin’s grief (this isn’t a spoiler, I promise) was so relatable. His character, the way he put everything into relationships and planned *way* ahead, was so relatable. I carry this loss with me every. single. day. This novel made my feelings feel justified, as odd as that sounds.
(The Latinx rep didn’t hurt either.)
The Hate U Give by Angie Thomas
Just one more. One really important book. Thomas spoke beautifully about race and racism in THUG, but that’s not why it’s here. For the first time in a book, I saw my town and my family in the pages.
Once upon a time in the ghetto… (an excerpt from my autobiography) No but seriously, it was revolutionary to see the main character living in the ghetto. And no they weren’t really poor, but they weren’t too well off either. I am my family and this book is as much a part of me as the skin on my bones.
So those were just a couple of books that I think help to describe me pretty well. I’m sure there’s more. I hope this was semi enjoyable? Maybe? Feel free to comment books that you feel accurately represent you.
Bye for now honeybees.